With this pregnancy, everything happened faster.
I knew sooner.
My clothes stopped fitting earlier on.
The nausea and tiredness came on quickly.
My confidence in who I was as a mother & a woman easily faltered.
I needed constant reassurance from myself & loved ones around me that I was doing a good job, that I didn’t actually look like a whale, and that it was okay to let things go that weren’t getting done.
It’s easy to lose ourselves in motherhood & pregnancy.
Once again, our identity begins to shift.
No longer am I a mother of one child.
No longer am I the wife of a man who will have one child.
No longer will we be just a family of three (plus a fur baby).
Again I say, it’s easy to lose ourselves in this journey.
The key is remembering that through birth, we are shedding our old self and welcoming in the skin of a new womanhood once again. It’s okay to be lost for a little while.
Being lost means that you can be found again.
Tune in next week for another Home Birth Journal entry!